Today I’ve sent my two sons a small surprise gift each to help them get through Lockdown 2. My 25 year old’s immediate response is to try and guess what it is.
He never was great at waiting. I remember the little boy stamping his feet and crying:
“But I can’t wait anymore, Mummy! I just can’t!”
In desperation, I growled back:
“Don’t wait then. Just sit there.”
Which, to my surprise, worked.
There’s so much waiting going on this week: US Elections, the hope for a return to some kind of normality. And so much ahead is obscure: will there be a clear result? Will the R rate decrease to a safer level?
It feels rather like my journey to work yesterday through autumnal fog – I know where I want to get to but I don’t know how long it will take and my view of the road before me is limited.
So what is the answer to all this hard waiting? Should we ‘just sit there’ and mark time?
Well, there’s a lot to be said for making the most of a pause to our usual routine, taking the time to notice and be grateful for the small details – the crunch of autumn leaves, Strictly, the smell of coffee, electronic communication – whatever it is for you. Or using this period to consider what really matters to us rather than following our daily patterns out of sheer habit, a chance to reset and reprioritise.
I believe that patience can best be grown out of trust but I am challenged by the hymn writers’ words:
‘I do not ask to see
The distant scene, one step enough for me’
(John Newman, Lead Kindly Light)
and
‘I know who holds the future and He’ll guide me with his hand’
(Alfred B Smith, I Do Not Know What Lies Ahead)
So my increasingly frequent prayer is: ‘In Your hands, Lord. We are in Your hands.’ And I picture a tiny baby safely cradled in strong fatherly palms or I imagine leaning into God’s shoulder, His arm around me like my dad did or my husband and sons do, my safe-and-at-home place.
And instead of focussing on the insecurities of today or the uncertainties of tomorrow, at least for a few minutes, I focus on the warmth and comfort of His presence and strength as we move forward together.
Writing this in conjunction with https://fiveminutefriday.com/2020/11/05/fmf-writing-prompt-link-up-ahead/